Thursday, November 10, 2011

I'm Baaaaaack!!!!!

I know I've been missing for a minute, but I figured I should post SOMETHING before I am throttled by a good doctor friend.

Well, not preggers yet...but the fight rages on.  I did go through a deep depression for a while, which is why I have been MIA.  This episode was a tough one.  I isolated myself, I stopped communicating with the ones I love most, and fought every positive vibe just so I could stay in a slump.  THIS IS NOT THE WAY!!!!  After some deep prayer, some soul searching, and a long talk with hubby and friends...I bounced back...and as simple as this phrase may seem...I AM SMILING.  That is something that I have not been able to do for a very long time.  

I just want to thank my friends and family for all they have done to inspire me.  The friend who is sharing this journey with me and helping me to find others that have conquered the preggers war.  The friend who is giving me all the medical advice while still learning (one of the smartest chicks I know).  The friend who was dealing with a completely different medical issue, but still had difficulty conceiving, and almost gave up, and is now hugging her 4 month old angel.  The married friend with PCOS who understood me when I typed my last blog.  The friend that threatened to KILL me if I didn't get out of my slump (nothing like tough love, roomie!)  The friend that has always been there for a laugh when she talks about her bestie.  The college friends that found their own way to spread empowerment and reminded me that I am still PERPHECT!  The friend who is going crazy with me, and has the drugs to prove it (lol).  My sisters, who I know will always be in my corner.  My do not know how much you have helped me.

And husband.  I know that he and I have really been on an emotional rollercoaster, but through it all, we found a way to get back to ourselves.  We took a step back in time to remember what we loved most about each other, and how we promised ourselves never to lose sight of that.  I know that he is not the enemy...and by not communicating with him...truly COMMUNICATING with him...I was losing pieces of him.  I got those pieces back, and I could not be more thankful.  (In my most high-pitched "hood-rat" voice) THAT'S MY BOO!

I love you all!  ETJ!

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  1. I am so happy to see that you're back. I know it's been a while because I've been checking. It was good to get the message that you had a new blog up.

    I have been through 2 rounds of Clomid. When you do the Clomid, you have to go back and forth several times to the doctor for ultrasounds. It is not fun if in the end you still have nothing but headaches. If in the end you had a baby, I guess it would be all worth it. That didn't happen for me, and I told my husband that I can't go through that again right now, and he agreed. I really want to lose weight to make things a lot easier. It's been difficult, but I know that it will happen.

    I am so glad that you have people around you to give you the tough love that you need to keep going forth. I believe it will happen; it's just not as easy for us as it is for some. Keep on keepin' on.

  2. Bout time!! I was having withdrawl symptoms! So glad you're back....I missed these.

    You'll get OUR Boomquisha, I believe that with all my heart. Girl I be taking notes and asking questions like crazy. As soon as I learn something pertaining to PCOS or infertility I jump on my phone to text you LOL This new REI doctor we have will be sick of me by the time I'm done with him...he starts tuesday and I already have a long list of questions. Po thang

    Don't let depression get the best of you. I know it's easier said than done. You're so freaking awesome so I just can't imagine a life without your smile. If you ever need to laugh just call/text/email me...I'm sure we could reminisce on some Claflin foolishness or tell hilarious hubby stories. I prefer the latter.

    Keep praying and keep pushing...God will grant you this perfect gift in His perfect time. Plus He has'll give me hope and weight in my argument "God you gave her one and she's You got to give me one too!!!!!".

    LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU....and the giant man child also

  3. interesting blog, interesting acronym MLIA. I love acronyms:)

  4. As one of your big Sis', i have these words of wisdom for you from God. If you will take one step God will take two, the trick is you have to keep stepping until he can reach you. He can't give you your blessing if he can't reach you. Keep the faith, don't give up, and NO More Deppression. Your blessing can only get closer, the Closer you get to God. you only need travel 1/3 of the way.

    I love you and you know you r in my prayers. Don't let negativity steal away the blessings you have already gotten.